Wednesday, October 15, 2014

Indescribable...

So, tonight I had a "God moment" in the bathroom at Chik-Fil-A... but before I get there let me fill you in a little.

Over the last couple of months I have been back on the job search trail. Somewhere around 75 resumes cold sent or applications filled out to date, 7 or 8 interviews, several simple "not hiring" responses, hours and hours of work put in so far. The interview that stands out the most is a phone interview with Oregon State University about a month ago. It is the first time I interviewed with a university teaching hospital and was very excited about the prospect of being able to work in a university environment. This morning I got my official "we didn't choose you" email from Oregon State just hours after getting home from a working interview at a doggie daycare for a kennel worker style position. The feeling of being insufficient to work in my field and only be able to work in a boarding/daycare facility had me very down. If you ever want to feel depressed try to find a job in a limited field, it will do it to you in a hurry.

So, with that history from this morning... this afternoon my dad got home from work and mentioned going to go look at a snowmobile trailer and asked if I wanted to go along. I jumped on the opportunity to get out of the house and we hopped in my truck and headed the 1 hour drive south to look at (and subsequently buy) the trailer. On the way home dad had the idea to stop at Chik-Fil-A for dinner. I was game since it was almost 7:00 and we hadn't eaten before we left. Once at Chik-Fil-A I ordered my dinner (with a sweet tea of course!) and went to use the restroom. While in the restroom I noticed the music playing in the restaurant and paused to listen, it was an instrumental version on Chris Tomlin's song "Indescribable". As I stood there I sang along in my head and just began to cry. Tears of surrender, peace, and just brokenness before God, right there in the Chik-Fil-A bathroom.

The God that placed the stars in the sky, and created this world that proclaims His glory, that He cares for even the smallest of creatures, is in control of my life. I am not insignificant in His eyes, and He in His indescribable love and power and authority, knows every detail of what my story is, and loves me even though He knows the darkest corners of my heart. He loves me even when I doubt Him, and worry instead, and when I feel worthless, even though He died for me! Wow!

God moments can happen anywhere... even in a Chik-Fil-A bathroom.